The new Goddess

Alex had told me I was a coward. It hurted me and it made me angry. I was trying to stay mad at her, but I just couldn't. I didn't know why, but I just could't. It was this weird feeling that I had a couple of times since the first time I met Alex. It felt amazing and terrible at the same time.
Alex probably had less trouble with staying angry at me, because she was ignoring me for three days now. It was really frustrating.
I saw her standing with a couple of girls. They were laughing and talking. Alex looked really happy with them, she didn't need me at all. Try it one more time, I told myself, so I walked to the girls. Alex saw me comming, but she didn't say hello or something. She just made some stupid joke and all the girls started laughing. Nobody payed attention on me. She was SO mean! I hated it! Emily suddenly stood in front of me. 'Don't try it,' she said, 'unless you want to embarress yourself.'
'She's still angry?' I asked.
'What do you think.'
'Uhm, yes?'
'Common, follow me. Let's talk about this at a place where Alex doesn't see it.'
'Okay...'
I followed her in the woods. A couple of times I looked back, just to make sure no one saw us going into the woods. Emily stopped and turned to me.
'She's not only angry. She's mostly disapointed.' She said.
'It doesn't look like that.'
'She turns her feelings into anger.'
'Feelings?'
'Yeah, girls have feelings too you know.'
'Okay, but what kind of feelings? Does she like me?'
'What! No! Well, she never said that, but I meant that she turns her feelings, in this case the disapointment, into anger.'
'So, what should I do?'
'Don't be a coward.'
'You think I'm a coward too?!'
'Well, the way you act looks kind of stupid.'
'I'm not stupid.'
She sighed. 'You used to be this cool guy, leader from the Hermes cabin, the Hero of a lot of girls, not afraid of anything, and then you turned into this.'
'What can I do to make it better?'
'Do something brave.'
'I'm not as brave as everyone thinks...'
'Do it for Alex.'
'Why would I do it for her?'
'Okay, do it for your reputation then.' She smiled.
I nodded and thanked her. She walked back to camp while I was still standing there. Thinking about what kind of 'brave' thing I should do. Alex was way braver then I was. I guessed she was also a lot stronger and powerfull than most of the campers here. She just didn't see it, didn't know how to use her powers. I wished I knew her powers, she had to be godly in some way, otherwise she couldn't get into camp. After a while I went back. It becam dark. When I was almost out of the woods, I heard someone talking.
'I have to do this!' A voice said, it was definitly Alex'.
'I don't know...' The other voice said.
'You don't understand! I can't be one of the group if I don't know who I am!'
'It's dangerous.'
'So what?!'
'If I let you go, you have to go with someone else.'
'You've got to be kidding....'
'No, I'm not, I can't let you go alone.'
I dared to come closer. I could see their faces now. Alex looked really angry, it almost scared me. The one she was talking to was Chiron. What did Alex have to do?
'You could go with Finn and Emily. You like those two, right?' Chiron continued.
'No.' Alex said. Chiron looked suprised. 'Okay, maybe I like Emily, but I don't need such a coward as Finn.' She continued.
'Don't say that.'
'Well, it's the truth!'
It was silent again. I wished I hadn't hear their conversation. I walked away as silent as posible and when I was out of vieuw, I started to run. I runned the whole way to my cabin. My siblings looked at me, but they didn't say something. I sat down on my bed. I was shocked. Did I really screw up this bad?

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