Something Every Member Should Read

I honestly don't know why I'm writing this. I shouldn't be. I just need someone to talk too. My friends aren't awnsering. In a way I'm not surprised. They alwase seem to be doing something else when I need them.
So, my mom. She moved to NM. My parents are devorised. I live out in Oregon. I went for two weeks to Oklahoma to visit family. Today my dad and my aunt drove me out there.
I'm speeding the next 5 1/2 weeks out with my mom and my other aunt. I can't stand my mom that well. We are constantly fighting. We never get along with each other. I don't know why I'm hear.
Tonight was my first night. We didn't fight, but I didn't talk. How am I supposed to answer how's your life been in the last 4 months! Well my friend almost killed herself. I've been trying not to get down. I don't want to be hear.
I can't do this for the next 5 weeks. I can't do this tonight. I started crying. I miss my dad, my home, my life. I don't want to do this!
Maybe I shouldn't have straightened my hair. When I look in the mirror I no longer see myself. I don't see the selfconfent person. No more loving person. I see someone broken over a stupid thing.
People are out there suffering. I should be doing something for them. Not drowning in selph pitty. Yet hear I am. I feel just sad. It's been 2 hours my friends haven't answered yet. In the morning I won't break down. They'll never know.
I can't help but be scared. I know what my friend goes through. I fell myself drifting there closer. I don't want to be there. I can't have that happen! I have to be there for her, not me. Right?
Sorry for putting this on you like that. I just had to get that out there. I don't think I can make it well, if I've already broken. Thanks for a least listening.
For now I'll just dry my tears. Watch afoul Disney shows and get one like this never happened. I've been told that I can talk to them whenever. That's never really tire is it. Sometimes I can't talk with family. Most times my friends aren't there.
Sleep well, I guess.

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