Something Every Member Should Read

I know that I haven't written in a wile. I don't know why, it's just been hard you know. SO, hears what's been happening, and I really need your help. Even if you just listion that's all I need. My dad got engaged to his girlfriend last weekend.
That's not the problem, I mean not really.
I guess it happened a month ago, or maybe two. I don't know.
Lately I've just been not myself. Normally I'm really an upbeat person, and even if I'm tired I just don't let that bug me. That hasn't been the case lately.
There's something you should know first.
My dad and I have alwase had a great daddy-daughter relationship. My mom and I haven't, as in most of my memories just are with me and my dad. Weather it's picking fruit or going to theme parks. Sure I had people I called my best friends, but my dad was my best friend. I could talk about anything with him. I loved being with him, he was my hero.
Now though I like hanging out with my friends, and get bored with him. I mean the last cupple time he and his girlfriend invited me somewhere, I've turned them down like I use to do with my mom. Even today, we were sopose to go to one of my favorite musiams and then for milkshakes, witch I love. I should have been excited and happy. Instead of that I was upset and I didn't even go. I mean right now I'm complaining about my problems to you.
No offence, but still. When my dad closed the door on my. I smiled, honest to gods smiled. What's up with that. I don't talk to him anymore. Susan, his girlfriend, is alwase talking about the engagement loudly a cupple rooms away when I'm trying to sleep. Dad says it's only going to be a little longer. He didn't do anything or say that she didn't mean to, even though he knows I haven't been getting good sleep. We alwase have to wait till Susan gets home to eat dinner witch isn't until like 7:00 some times. We don't eat at the diner table anymore but the couch. We made a rool not to use electronics during dinner, now we alwse do. Even when he was really busy and I said don't bother to come to what even performance I had, he came anywase. He missed my first band performance at a football game last night.
I alwase knew that
Someday we were going to drift off, but I guess I alwase assumed it wasn't going to be until Collage, you know. I mean he's not really my best friend anymore. I even have an imaginary friend, more like charters in books, but what ever, that's something witch I never had. I use to let my emosains be free, now I gared them like there secrets. I-I just don't know what to do anymore. I need my dad and he seems more considered about Susan. Not that there's anything wrong with that. I think Susens great, but.... I don't know. I can't even get into books, and I rather listen to music then talk to my dad. I even tried to talk to my dog, and she just practically ingaored me.
I wanted to ask someone what to do, because even if I can help with other peoples problems, I am comply clueless on my own. I'm getting annoyed with everyone, and it improved my mood so mush when someone told me they thought I wasn't doing so well, because well I'm not. I maybe should talk to my friends, but I want to do it face to face, and that means someones alwase nearby. I can talk to my mo cuz that would open up a can of worms.
I just don't know.
Anyway thanks to listening to my rambling, you

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