Something Every Member Should Read

Have you ever thought..........Ok well I am sure you have though. Ok now is not the time for me to joke around.
Anywase have you ever thought, Does anyone really know me?
I know I have. I am a middle schooler (surprised?) and as one I have realized that know one really does. I mean no one my age dose. I have many close best friends, but they don't know me. The know this fake me. The one that always is laughing and joking around, but that's not me.
In all honesty I am nothing like that.
I am a person who is very passionate about almost everything. I also get sad easily. Do I think they know this? No.
Two years ago my parents got divorced. It was a big shock because they never fought around me. It was very hard for me. My mom also has bipolar(I don't : ) ) and that's difficult.
I never get along with my mom. It is hard for me. Whenever I'm around her we fight. I hate that. I get along with my dad well and we have a great daddy daughter relationship. But my mom and me? We don't. Ever since I was little we have never gotten along.
I don't believe that my friends know this. I know they don't know that 75% of my smiles are fake. Which makes me feel even worse. I want to go up to them and just tell them what's really going on. I can't though. I don't want any of their pity. I just want to get it off my shoulders. I want to help them to, but I can't if I don't know what's going on with them.
I do put my feelings in my writing, but that doesn't fix much.
I have been having bitter thoughts towards them. I don't want to though. I mean two years ago I was terrible at hiding it. They didn't notice this though. It makes me wonder if they are really my friends.
I wight books and send it through google docs. I know they go on google docs. I sent them one telling my feelings. You know how hard it is to know that you're friends don't care enough to read my books. I mean what the hell??
This raises the question does anyone really know you? Dose anyone in middle school really know there best friend? Does anyone see when they are upset? Does anyone really care? About them? Or me?
It's hard to think about isn't.
I am going to see if I can change this. I want to talk to the kids in my school about this.
I propose that we start with a simple hello and complements.
I think it would change depression in middle schoolers.
It is basically that we start being kinder to each other. When a new student comes to school, walk up to her/him and say hi, hello, or yo if you are into that. When you see someone you don't know say nice jacket, I like your hair, or I don't know sick shoes dude. It's not hard but it can make a difference in someone's life.
If you could help someone.......Why wouldn't you?
Simple acts like this can really make a difference. My best friend may not have almost killed herself. Kids may not kill themselfs as much. And depression/ bullying wouldn't be so big.
I just want to make a difference.

I dont know you, but I think you are a good person. Please if you care about random strangers start doing this. It could save a life.

Thank you,
Sadie Kane

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