Inexperienced

When Aloisyus turned away to go back to Camp, I caught his arm. Nerves racked through me when I pulled him towards me and kissed him.
I could feel him gasp against my mouth and I pulled back, afraid to have gone too far.
I wasn't sure until then that I was in love with him until he looked at me with disbelief and kissed me back. Butterflies exploded in my stomach and I put my arms around his neck.
I didn't know how long we kissed, but finally we pulled back, both flushed and breathing hard.
'How did you know?' He asked.
'Know what?'
'That I was in love with you.'
'I didn't,' I answered honestly.
He smiled. 'You are so brave and so stupid.'
I was okay with that.
When we walked back with our hands entangled, Percy found us. He looked questioningly at our hands and faces and narrowed his eyes at Aloisyus.
'What are you doing with my sister?' He asked suspiciously. His fraternal love was cute, but I actually wanted to do a facepalm right now.
'Um, I'll just, go,' Aloisyus mumbled, vaguely gesturing to another part of Camp.
Percy watched him go, and then he turned to me.
'Did he kiss you?' He asked bluntly.
'As a matter of fact, I kissed him.' He nodded, rubbing his forehead.
'You love him.'
'I think so, yeah.'
'I kinda like him, but if he hurts you...' He looked murderous and very dangerous.
'Yeah, yeah. I can look after myself, you know. Especially now that I know I'm a goddess.' This left his mouth hanging open for a while.
When he had regained his senses, he struggled to find the words.
'You fell in love with a satyr and-and you're a goddess? Major mindfuck, sorry.' He sat down on the beach (yeah, we hadn't got that far).
'It's okay. I only found out today, so I'm still trying to cope with it.' I sat down next to him, turning some sand over and over in my hands.
'Referring to the satyr-thing or the goddess-thing?'
'Both.'
'You know, I was offered to be a god, once.'
I swiveled my head around to meet his gaze. 'Really? Why did you turn it down?'
He turned away, staring out at the sea. 'Because that would mean that I became immortal, and Annabeth wouldn't. I would lose everyone I loved in time, and I didn't want that.'
He'd pointed something out to me that was even worse than my mum's betrayal, and I hadn't even thought about it.
I was immortal. I would live for eternity, and I would lose everyone I loved.

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